blessed_shaula

well, what can i say? 

I’m really pretty left behind!:)

At least now i know that i myself is the only one to blame

All along i thought i was struggling just because i’m going through the inevitable tests in life

I never realized that it’s also because of the wrong decisions i’ve done

I guess i messed up my life pretty well.. though it’s so unconsciously

it’s really true…

YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW

life is a series of events

everything don’t just happen…

they certainly happened because there are factors that gave way to them

I just can’t believe how far this PRIDE had made me left behind…

Now i’m still stuck in this sinking and stinking country…. alone

Still haven’t accomplished anything…

and have no choice but to bear everything!

Gee… i just can’t believe this! All along I thought I was doing right…. but i often make stupid mistakes

I wonder if i’ve ever done any right decisions in life…

Anyway, Cest la vie!

At least now I’ve learned really really great lessons that I could never learn from school or read from books… maybe i can write a book about this someday! hehehe

I guess i just have to move on and continue looking at the brighter side

I truly thank God for allowing me to learn things that are far beyond my nature could comprehend

i’m hoping that God will continue to teach me as I walk in this journey called life

I thank God for always helping me get through with such devastating and frustrating circumstances

Where can i go without Him?

Anyway, i know i will also manage to graduate someday… hopefully soon

on that day, i’m not only equipped with skills and knowledge needed for my career

but i’m also packed with the immeasurable wisdom i’ve gained from all my experiences

I believe i could still be that person that God wanted me to be

I know i can still catch up!:)

Why do i always have to be a  late bloomer? hhahahaha

or am i?

Oh dear, i’m just starting my life… again!:)

How many times do i have to start over and over again?

i wish this time i could start it with someone who can help me realize if i’m starting to be stupid again… i don’t want anymore mistakes( for now at least) i’ve already made a lot of it!

It’s really been a wonderful a vacation…

Exhausting yet exciting travel, beaches, falls, stars, music, solitude, God, friends…

I finally had the moment that I’ve been longing to have for such a long time

A time for all by myself…

No responsibilities.. no deadlines.. no stress..

I had lots of time for reflection and prayer

I really love this vacation..

so far this has been the best I’ve ever had!:)

For a couple of days…

I had a whole house on my own

My own room, bathroom, kitchen, living room!

I got to shop stuffs for my ref and finally had my home cooked tinola again!

After months I now have the total control over what I eat

Greens, milk, home made carrot juice, loads of healthy food!

I really missed cooking…

I used to cook for the whole family..

Now I’m the only one who eats what I cook

That’s a little depressing though

I really miss my family back here at our home

Somehow I miss their noise and mess…

anyway…

It’s sad that I’m gonna miss these things again

Vacation is over and i have to go back on my real world now

World of hustle and bustle….

It’s good that at least I’m recharged now..

And have already prepared for it…

I managed to make a financial and time budgeting while on vacation!:)

I  hope things would materialize..hehe

waaahhhh….

I hate to go back in manila and face everything again..

do a lot of mind conditioning again…

Always reminding myself to have a good perspective to ward off the negative ones…

haaayyy….

when will things ever get the way i really want them to be?

pag nasa heaven na ako! hehe

Anyway…

I wonder if people really read this blog stuff…

hmmm..

I don’t care…

I just enjoy writing stuffs…

actually i write whenever i feel like writing

sometimes i just like the rush i feel when i open a blank document

and the tick tack sounds on the keyboard too!

weird, huh?:)

I think ‘ve written a dozen of reflection papers here… usually at night or siesta time…

i mean on the computer

can’t publish them here.. hehe

anyway…

this is going no where

got to cut this off for now

who the hell am i talking to anyway?

hahaha