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how i wish i would always have the time to go to the mountain and just be alone with God…

with all these growing responsibilities in every area of my life…

with all the life saving pressure…

school and all sorts of work pressure…

financial pressure…

how i really wish i could demand for a day-off

or should i decide to have one… there willl be no major consequences!

I wonder how long could i still go on… coping up with everything…. trying my best to do all the tings that i have to do

i wonder if it’s still possible for me to have a balanced life wherein i could still sleep 8 hours a day.. eat 3 times a day… and just walk not run! hahaha

para lagi akong kasali sa marathon!:) running and beating deadlines… buzzer beater talaga ito! hahhaha

haaaayyyy…. i do love my life…it’s just that i wish everything is in order and balance….. pero parang boring din pag ganun!

hahahaha…

i just wish i really know what i want..

AS of now….

i’m really facing a great financial battle of all times!

where am i gonna get 400k at this point of time wherein i dont even have time for myself

aaahhhhhhhhhhhh…………..

i can’t even have a day off…. how can i even start looking for buyers or plan alternatives…..

this is too much for me…

what if i cant?

i’ll loose  my beloved home?

waaahhhhhhhhhhhh………….

Oh God please help me….

Everyday of my life i face a real life drama…

i can’t believe i’m having one of my own right now

at least mine is not that major…

God is indeedso gracious to me that i’m still breathing and capable of doing all of my tasks…

at least im not the one on the death bed

it’s always a heart breaking moment whenever im at the hospital and caring for all the poorest among the poor and weakest among the weak

my patient who had a Chronic Kidney Disease died 2 days ago..

if only she had money for dialysis, she could have lived longer

my other patient is being evicted on the ward because she doesn’t have money for all her medical expenses

my other patient… her case is organo phosphate ingestion… at least i wont ever do that! i will never ever commit suicide! It’s impossible for me to loose hope…

they just make me realize how blessed i am despite everything that im going through

so right now…..

i guess i just have to hold on to that

God has blessed me in a lot of ways

It is true indeed…

"much is given…much is  required!"

God has given me much… so i need greater challenges…

whew!

400,000 pesos

it’s still very small…

I know God is more than able to provide it…

yun nga lang..

I also have to do my part…

that one i do not know how..hahahaha

that would be all for now…

this blog thing is really therapeutic for me:)

this is a good way for me to just let it all out from my confused and tired inner me….

kakangarag na talaga…

it’s a miracle that im still able to do blog right this moment…hehehe