This day calls for a celebration! "my precious" is back! After i have already started to accept that it’s really lost.. now it came back just like that! Bakit nga kaya ganun? Sometimes when you already gave up… that’s the time your hopes will be suddenly up and the whole tide will be turned around. How ironic!
I’m a one heck of a weirdo! haha Have you ever experienced being consumed by your ideas about killing someone? Well, I wasn’t able to have a good sleep last night because I’ve been plotting a lot of plans on killing Dodi! Dodi is our very unwanted room mate. He’s one heck of a rat! That very clever rat has already busted every nerve in my system. He drives me crazy and officially makes me a paranoid. He’s gonna pay for it. Tonight is the night! Payback time! I was thinking of having a pepper spray to make him blind then i"ll suffocate him in whatever chamber i could use. I also thought of stabbing him with a syringe filled with a lethal dose of meds. But heck… it will cause me some amount of money for meds. How about just filling it with whatever organo phosphate chemical. That’s a brilliant plan, isn’t it? Before, my plans were so morbid so I just settled for that . I was thinking of a bloody combat with all the sharps and air guns or bottles to smash on him until i realized that i can’t stand a rat’s blood. Human’s blood i can deal with.. but not a rat’s. Look how this rat has turned me into a psycho! hahaha
Look at all these crazy ideas! It turned me into a psycho…until i went to Ace hardware and found a very simple solution for my problem. For goodness sake….a rat trap is all i need! hahaha I’ve been acting like a psycho when all i need is a trap! Tonight is the night of paying back. Boy I’m excited to do my plans! I hope it’s Dodi that I’ll catch and not my precious hand. The guy from Ace hardware who demonstrated to me on how to use the trap got his very fingers trapped on it. Yikes! I hope i’ll do it right!
I guess… i have to try to it now so til next time! nyep nyep nyep
Dear oh dear… what am i doing here? I should be doing a lot of other more important things than this. Waaahhh… perhaps a few more minutes of spending my time here wouldn’t be that bad. In fact, i guess it would help instead. This is so therapeutic for a poor haggard soul. Haha!
It’s new year already. I wish i were able to write here last January 1. I had the most beautiful new year celebration ever! I spent it alone with God at the Prayer Mountain… then when the fireworks started to bombard the skies.. i went out to watch. How cool was that? Watching fireworks from the mountain!:) It’s overwhelming!
next year, i already know where to go on holidays! I don’t want to travel back home anymore. A lot has already changed. I guess it’s time to move on. I no longer have any reason of going back there:(
My past has literally been buried. Everything i ever treasured… God has taken away from me. Even "My Precious"! He even took "MY Precious". I”ve been keeping and treasuring my white gold necklace for 6 years and now it’s gone:( I have no idea how it happened. It has always been precious for me because of its sentimental value. Now its gone. Everything is gone. For the past few years, it seems that God has been taking away things from my life. . .prestige… then the opportunities… then properties… our family business… even our vehicles… farmland… the latest is our home! no… "my precious" pala! Then… it’s the people i love. Clearly they are leaving. My family has already left few years ago. The only family i have now is my brother but he’s also leaving. Then my friends. Everybody is leaving! Have I mentioned that most of my friends are already married and more are planning to get married? Even my bestfriend! hahaha Clearly, everyone is having their own ways already. Everything now is completely different. my goodness… Ilang dekada na ba dumaan? Bakit paraang sobrang bilis ng lahat? Bakit parang taga ibang mundo ata ako!?
I’m practically alone. This is the inevitable reality.
It’s truly wonderful that i have God in my life. He’s all i have.
My family… bestfriend… provider… and everything!
where would i be without Him? I can’t imagine a life without Him.
As of now… i’m kinda preparing myself already. I know this year will be a lot tougher than last year. Heck… that sounds scary! But God told me on the very first day of this year that i should be very courageous. I don’t need to be afraid.Matters to be dealt with will be more serious. Well, i guess all of these things have just something to do with my prayer about taking my faith to the next level. True enough, unang araw ng taon dagasa agad ako! haha I know more challenges and difficulties will come. I know it’s for the best no matter what:) I just have to trust God. For sure i’ll fret every now and then. Gagapang talaga ako. That’s the reason i’ll always have to spend more time with God and ask forgiveness from being a stubborn kid. I can now imagine my tantrums! haha I really have to get over it. haha
I guess that’s enough for now. haha.. this is really therapeutic! i can now start doing my task. Adios!
