Home is where the heart is
Forty five minutes to go and my self-declared holiday will start! A moment like this is rare. I am so excited. A few days ago, I almost forgot my upcoming special day. It was only through my little sisters greetings that I was able to remember that I’ll be having my birthday soon.
I’ve been so busy with so many concerns. I barely have time to sleep and eat. I cannot complain nor fret though. I chose this kind of life because I know it will be for the best. I’ve been working on a lot of things and they are pretty diverse. Sixteen hours of hospital work in 2 different hospitals a day, working on a lot of paperworks, lessons and exams and staying as late 3-4am for a very important work that requires all my creativity and patience. It was really only through God’s grace that I was able to finish it and survive everything. No sleep nor food on my tummy while working in the hospital is really something.
As I look back at my life last year, it wasn’t really very different from my life now. I’ve got a lot of sharks and I still get kinda depressed for a while whenever a special occassion would come. It reminds of my loved ones who are away from me. THEY ARE ALL AWAY FROM ME.
While attending the Sunday service tonight, I can’t help but get carried away by my thoughts. My mind started to wander until they carried my feet back to the ground. I’ve been so busy and tired and occupied by so many things but I didn’t mind at all because I know what I am doing and where I am going . I’ve learned to tame my emotions and my body for the sake of the bigger picture that I’m into. However, in the midst of everything, I saw myself journeying alone. I felt so human. I lost my focus. My birthday reminded me of the good old days when I travel back home to spend my special day with my family and friends. Now, I don’t have that home that I used to have. Now my home is the entire world!
Cliche or not, home is where the heart is. Everywhere I go, whatever I do; As long as I pour my heart into it… I consider it my home. The hospital, Crossroad, my boarding house, my school, prayer mountain.. every place that I feel God’s presence.. that’s my home. Nomad as I may seem but my home is just found in one place. It’s in my heart where God is also residing.
In the midst of the busyness of my life, it is such a privilege to find peace and rest everywhere I would want to have that. It’s all in the mind and in the heart!:) It is so amazing to have that kind of feeling even if without sleep nor fuel. I have an unlimited source energy that keeps me going though my body seem to start failing. One thing I know, God has already planned everything ahead of time. "Bawal mamatay," as our life coaches would always tell us. I know, God will allow me first to fulfill the work that He has vested upon me. Though I am so excited to meet Him in heaven which will be my home for eternity, I would still want to consider earth as my home for the moment. There are still a lot of work to do!:)
After some time of wandering while sitting on a sunday service, I was finally taken back to the ground. The big word FOCUS flashed on the screen. hahaha! That’s the message for me tonight and for the rest of this another exciting year that God has prepared for me.
Oh my gosh! it’s 12mn!:) My holiday officially starts now! As of today, work would have to wait though. Hahahaaha! It will resume tomorrow. My birthday prayer is very simple…. i want to spend quality time with God at HOME:)
